在ReTurn这个课题中,我拍摄一个短片,以多重人格障碍症患者的视角来表现他们的一天。多重人格障碍(DID),是一种精神疾病。其症状表现为身份的瓦解,出现两个或更多的相互独立的人格状态,每种人格都有独特的体验、知觉、构想的模式,以及不同的年龄、长相、喜好等。 在我对多重人格症进行调研时发现,当患者的人格状态转变时,他们会出现严重的遗忘症状,甚至伴随患上抑郁症,然而这些痛苦和困扰并不像大众所认为的那样“酷”或“恐怖”。这种疾病的形成大多都是由于童年不幸的经历导致的,例如经历过虐待或者性侵。当自我无法承受这些经历的痛苦时,分裂出的人格便来帮忙承担。希望通过我的创作能让人们减少对这种精神疾病的误解与歧视。
The theme of my short film is about RETURN to oneself. It mainly shows one day of people with multiple personality disorders. Multiple personality disorder (DID), is a mental illness. The symptoms are disintegration of identity, with two or more independent personalities. Each personality has a unique experience, perception and conception patterns, as well as different ages, looks, preferences. In my research on DID, I find out when patients' personality changes, they will suffer from severe amnesia and even depression, but these painful experience and troubles are not as "cool" or "scary" as the public thinks. Most of the disease results from unfortunate childhood experiences, such as physical or sexual abuse. When the ego cannot bear the pain of these awful experiences, the split identities help to bear them. I hope that through my video, people can reduce the misunderstanding and discrimination against this mental illness.